Who comes and Who goes?

It has been ages since I last blogged. The changing nature of life has been too rapid for me to keep in pace, likewise to update. At times, I can't help feeling ironic for the suspense of what's happening next- who comes and who leaves? The unpredictable life shows no warning and at any moment things just happened and turned the story upside. Friends becoming foes, how many times have you seen such scenarios? But then again, things do not ignite without sparks.

I asked myself what causes the aftermath; when I started being nosy, when you started lying or when we started losing trust? Have we both been a bitch then? I reckon I was. A relationship accepts no 3rd party, needless to say having friends buzzing into the conflicts. I have no rights to be involved neither blurting things out. You have your rights not to share and who are we to determine to know then. But what upset me the most was you lying straight on our face. If we asked, you'll tell- Is that what you really did? Have you always been honest? Have you been hiding even when we are already clearly aware of? No one knows the answer better than you do. I'm not asking for your trust, and I doubt the likelihood after the whole incident, instead I hope for your understanding that I wasn't neither backstabbing nor judging. If you received everything in quoted words, you would be familiar with these words; "personal opinion", "I'm not sure" and "check with her". Perhaps it has been the lack of mutual trust to understand the person we truly are.

I wonder how much of our friendship is left and if it's ever possible to be back like before. I guess only time tells.